I was ready for your party
I had hardly seen you in the past 12 months
I was busy fucking up my life and getting drunk
Then I turned on my phone and I heard about what had happened
Your boyfriend told me, all he could say was
There’d been an accident and you definitely were not okay
And I’ll be honest it didn’t hit me as hard as it should have
It didn’t even make me cry because I had pretty much said goodbye over a year ago

And the distance gets greater
I feel like a traitor
See you on Facebook think I’ll talk to you later
It’s hard to find the time when all we have is memories of a high school life
And I talked to your mother after another
Half-assed attempt at being your brother again
I’m just way too obsessed with the bullshit in my own head
But sis you know I still love you
I just wanna be family again
So if you let me lean on you one last time
I’ll be there if you ever need a crutch again

When you finally got out you slapped me in the mouth
Then you hugged me and screamed “where the fuck have you been?”
And I didn’t have an answer
So I just brushed you aside

And the distance gets greater
I feel like a traitor
See you on Facebook think I’ll talk to you later
It’s hard to find the time when all we have is memories of a high school life
And I talked to your mother after another
Half-assed attempt at being your brother again
I’m just way too obsessed with the bullshit in my own head
But sis you know I still love you
I just wanna be family again
So if you let me lean on you one last time
I’ll be there if you ever need a crutch again

And I didn’t visit your hospital bed
I’m so sorry but I was scared of what I’d see
But when I found out you could walk again
I swear it was the happiest I’d ever been

And the distance gets greater
I feel like a traitor
See you on Facebook think I’ll talk to you later
It’s hard to find the time when all we have is memories of a high school life
And I talked to your mother after another
Half-assed attempt at being your brother again
I’m just way too obsessed with the bullshit in my own head
But sis you know I still love you
I just wanna be family again
So if you let me lean on you one last time
I’ll be there if you ever need a crutch again
I’ll be there if you ever need me again
No I won’t disappear again